Wednesday, August 19, 2020

Melancomia

             Almost six months had passed since the last confirmed outbreak. That fact comforted most folks, but Max resisted the urge to grow complacent. As a federal agent, he had been stationed in Boston four years ago and had seen the impact of a new generation of infectious disease. Boston had been ground zero to the worst outbreak of its kind. A repeat event would likely cripple the economy and put millions out of work. Then, of course, there would be the suicides. Boston had temporarily closed many of its sidewalks to protect pedestrians from being mashed under the weight of a suicidal jumper.   

            Max waited in the city hall lobby of a small New England city just north of Boston and considered what another outbreak might entail. But it wasn’t long before Mayor Morris appeared, with the local police chief in-tow.

            “Special Agent Rockwell?” the mayor said as she approached.

            “Yup, that’s me,” said Max as he stood.  

            “Mayor Morris. You can call me Diane,” she said.

The mayor then inclined her head toward the uniformed man on her left and added, “This is Chief Decetti.”

            “Hey, how’s it going?” Max said to the mayor and then gave the chief of police a playful wink. Max certainly looked like a federal agent with his neatly trimmed hair and well-fitted trench coat, but he acted quite differently from what Mayor Morris might have expected from someone of his station.

            The mayor wore a confused expression as she spoke,“Um…special agent, your department called me this morning and told me of a possible active case in this city. I’m…most concerned, as you can imagine.”

            “That’s why I’m here,” said Max. “I’m looking for a kid who likely had prolonged contact with a victim of the most recent strain.”

            “Please, this way,” the mayor motioned for the agent and chief to follow her.

            She led the trio back to her office, overlooking the wealthy town of New Havenport.

            “This is very serious, Mr. Rockwell,” the mayor said after seating herself in the cushy office. “If word gets out that this region has been hit with the disease, it will likely negatively impact our tourism.”

            “Shame that would be,” Max said, his tone neutral.

            “Less tourism means less funding for hospitals and other essential services. Less funding means more people dying in the long run, Mr. Rockwell,” the mayor said, as if to impress upon him the significance of the situation.

            Max didn’t respond right away. He wasn’t particularly affected by other’s emotional appeals, and most conversation was comprised largely of them. He also didn’t feel the normal cognitive pull to fill an uncomfortable silence, though he’d read about how strong that impulse was for most.

When he did respond, he shifted conversation and asked, “Did my department send you all of Daniel Craft’s details this morning. He’s the kid we’re looking for.”

            The mayor leaned back in her chair before looking over to her companion. “Chief Decetti,” she said.

            The chief nodded, “Yes, my best investigators are looking for him as we speak. Daniel Craft’s last known location is a suburb just west of here. We have one of the most advanced surveillance systems in the northeast, and it’s difficult for citizens to move about the city without us knowing. We’ll find him.”

            Max nodded in reply, but he wasn’t looking at either of the two people in front of him. His gaze wandered around the lavish office, never resting.

“What should we do when we figure out where he is?’ the chief asked.

            “Just let me know. I’ll take care of it.” Max said.

            “I’ve heard rumors about the agents in your department.” The mayor’s listless, grey eyes narrowed as she spoke. “So, tell me, what are you? Scientists? Federal Police? Psychiatrists?”

            Max nodded “Yes.” Then after a short pause he added, “The CCN wears many hats, and so must I.”

            The mayor frowned and said, “I won’t pretend like I understand the world of psycodemiology, special agent, but maybe you could shed some light on how these new-age diseases spread. Perhaps it could help us assist you in your search.”  

            Max nodded, “I doubt it could help, but most people are curious, so I don’t mind indulging your curiosity.”

            The agent then looked up at the ceiling and whispered to himself, as if performing a quick calculation.

            Max continued, “Well, we used to think that only physical illnesses could be contagious. But that largely changed about 35 years ago. It turns out that patterns of thought are contagious too. It’s just that diseased patterns of thought are harder to contract, because the exposure period often has to be weeks, months, or even years.”

            “And that’s what hit Boston?” the mayor asked.

            “Yes,” Max nodded. “Patient zero there was a local educator and preacher named Zoranuman.”

            “I heard of him. He reportedly infected hundreds by himself, and his disciples even more,” said Decetti.

            “True enough.” Max said.

            “How often do these mental infections occur?” the mayor asked.

            “Often,” Max nodded, “but many times the really pernicious ones kill their carriers off via group suicides before spreading too far. Symptoms spread unbelievably quickly among infected groups, so when the more critical behaviors appear, they kind of happen to everyone at the same time.”

            “But that wasn’t the case with Zoranuman?” the Mayor asked.

            “No, because most of the people he infected didn’t commit suicide. Less than half of them did, so it could continue to spread. But all of the infected stopped working and participating in any meaningful sort of activity. They nearly shut down the city. It’s a really bad strain of a thought pattern we’ve identified as Melancomia.”

            “And you think that’s what we have here?” the mayor looked terrified as she asked.

            “It’s…possible.” Max nodded.

            Mayor Morris sat up, and began to breath heavily as she asked, “But what if this guy you’re looking for, Daniel, really does have it? And then what if he gets on social media and spreads it virtually? What if he already has? What if thousands of people here already have a latent form of Melancomia, and New Havenport becomes the new ground zero for a worldwide –.”

            “Easy,” Max said.

He waited two full breaths and continued, “These mental infections don’t tend to spread via media. Firstly, because my department, CCN, has advanced algorithms that monitor the digital world closely. If we identify these patterns reproducing online, we shut it down quick.

 And secondly, because the exposure level and style of media aren’t usually sufficient to contract Melancomia…in most cases.”

Mayor Morris sat back down, eyes still a little frantic. Then she said, “And in the fringe cases?”

Max waved a dismissive hand, “A period of quarantine and cognitive retraining is enough to treat most patients.”

            “I’m perfectly capable of leading New Havenport through a crisis if it does come to that.” Mayor Morris announced.

            Max didn’t say anything. Truth be told, he didn’t really care. He was only here for one purpose: to get to Daniel. None of the rest was any of his business.

            A creeping excitement seeped just inside the boundaries of Max’s awareness: a possibility about the true substance of Max’s chase. He thought that perhaps Daniel was more important than anyone, even his superiors at the CCN, understood.

            “Found him!” The police chief shouted, pulling up a screen with tracking icons too complex for Max to decipher.

“Daniel Craft was sighted near the New Havenport Dam!” the chief exclaimed.

            Max stood.

            “You can ride with me,” the police officer said, motioning towards the office door. He gave one final look toward the mayor in request to be dismissed.

            She nodded towards the chief but addressed Max before he could exit.

            “Mr. Rockwell,” she offered one last challenge. “I’ve also heard that CCN agents are statistically the most likely people to be carriers of a contagious mental viru. You’re the most likely to come in contact with the infected after all. How does it feel to spend your days chasing madness?”

            Max smiled, “Those days feel a hell of a lot better than the ones when I’m being chased.”

***********

            Chief Decetti punched in the coordinates for the New Havenport Dam, and the police vehicle took off with a silent fury. Max and the chief sat in the back seat, and the chief wore a worried look on his face.

            “You really wanted to come along, didn’t you?” Max asked.

            “Hmm?” the police chief seemed startled by the sudden conversation. He’d been in deep thought. “Oh… yes well of course, I’m worried about a young man living in our city…you know?”

            Max nodded. “That’s very compassionate.”

            A short silence followed. That seemed to bother the chief.

            “How will you know if he’s infected?” the chief asked.

            “I’ll interview him.” Max said.

            “There’s no…test or anything?”

            “I am the test,” Max explained, “patterns of thought are much harder to detect than physical ailments because of their deeply conceptual nature. Even with advanced brain scanning technology, it isn’t possible to detect infectious patterns without interacting with a person directly.”

            “And your determinations are always certain?” the chief asked.

            “Nothing’s certain, but I do have a particularly good track record. That’s why CCN sent me here.”

            The captain nodded.

            “You won’t be able to accompany me during the confrontation though, chief. I’m sorry to say.”

            “W-why? The chief asked. “Would one interaction be enough exposure to contract a thought pattern?”

            “Unlikely,” Max said, “But this wouldn’t be your first time interacting with Daniel, would it?”

            The police chief went rigid. His eyes became wide. And soon his hand began to creep toward a pulse pistol at his hip.

            “Don’t,” Max said, pulling his coat open to reveal a much newer model, holstered snuggly under his arm.

“I promise, I’m faster.” Max said nonchalantly.

            The chief’s hand froze in place, and Max continued. “I know you had a son in Daniel’s high school class. I wasn’t certain if they were friends at first, because it’s a pretty big school. But your behavior led me to think that they must at least have known each other. And you’re worried what that could mean to your family.”

            “I know what you do to people who are too far gone.” Decetti said.

            Max shrugged.

            “Are you going to test me?” Decetti asked.

            Max laughed. “What do you think I’ve been doing?”

            The police chief furrowed his brow. 

            “You’re clean,” Max assured him, and then he closed his trench coat back up.

            The policeman’s tension began to dissipate, and slowly, his hands returned to their normal resting position.

“But you still can’t come,” Max said as his gaze wandered through a car window.

He watched the blurred landscape zoom past them and offered “Do you know that the biggest danger to a CCN agent is not the infected people, not by far. My biggest danger is healthy people who think they might be infected?”

            The old police chief wore a look of shame for a solid moment.

“It’s just…my family, you know?” the chief asked.

            “Not personally, no. But I can empathize. I’m very good at that,” Max said.

            “These new age diseases are all just so mysterious. Everyone’s on edge.” the policeman said, offering a justification.

            Max agreed, “They have to be mysterious. Knowing what these thought patterns are is the first step to being infected by them.”

            “So, you can’t even tell me what thought patterns you’re looking for?”

            “No,” Max answered, “the diseased patterns themselves are classified. That’s why so many people have heard of Melancomia, but almost no one knows it’s specific symptoms. Only those with a particularly high tolerance are allowed to know. But it’s also the reason why most of the carriers are completely unaware that they have it. How could they be? So, well-meaning people can spread Melancomia far and wide.

And, to make matters worse, we still haven’t found a consistent trigger for them either. For instance, some mental infections require a violent event to act as a catalyst, and sort of activate the infected thought pattern. But Melancomia didn’t require any such violent event. That’s why we missed it at first.”

            Decetti shook his head. “The world seems to become a more frightening place all the time.”

            Max didn’t respond to this. He didn’t really have an opinion about it.

            The rest of the ride ensued without incident, and at last the car arrived at the dam.

The area around the high dam had already been cordoned off by police, and an assembly of onlookers all stared out toward a lone figure on top of the dam wall,

This figure stood in the light breeze, hands in his pockets as though he didn’t have a care in the world. The winding river foamed and churned about 100 feet below him.

Max ducked under the police tape and advanced on his target.

It was about a quarter mile walk up to the middle of the dam, and as Max approached, Daniel Craft never turned to look in his direction once. The target simply stared down over the crashing waterfall and into the river beyond.

            Daniel looked older in person than he had in his picture. Perhaps it was the blond stubble or the tired eyes, but he didn’t look like a kid in person at all.

            Max hopped atop the wall beside the figure, put his own hands in his pockets, and stared out over the water as well.

            The pair stood there for a while, until at last Daniel offered, “You know, this –right here-- is really my thesis.”

            “I read a lot about you on my way here. You’re quite the brilliant student.” Max noted.

            “Yes,” Daniel nodded. It wasn’t a gloat. It was the simple agreement of an accurate observation.

            “Do you know how this works?” Max asked.

            “No,” Daniel shook his head.

            Max gave a self-satisfied smile, and then asked, “Can you tell me what we’re supposed to be doing here?”

            “That’s it.” Daniel nodded, “The question. But are you sure you want the answer?”

            “Is there another question you’d like to answer?” Max asked.

            Daniel didn’t respond his glazed eyes were fixed on something that didn’t seem to exist in the current moment.

            “Daniel?” Max asked. “How about this: how are you feeling?”

            There was a long silence, and Max thought Daniel wasn’t going to answer again, but after a space, Daniel said, “Powerful.”

            The single word escaped the lad like a shiver, involuntarily.

But once he had begun to speak, Daniel couldn’t help but continue.

“I tested my creations on a new professor every year” Daniel said. “It was a new pattern of thought each time. Hmm, but poor old Zoranuman he was my first breakthrough: Melancomia. Thank you CCN for the name by the way.”

            Max nodded, “So it’s true: an architect. My directors at the CCN didn’t believe one could exist. But I knew…eventually someone would find a way to weaponize diseased thought.” 

            “It didn’t begin that way.” Daniel said earnestly. “I grew up training people with mostly harmless thought patterns. Catastrophizing was my first. I taught my little siblings to catastrophize, and I noticed that once they adopted the pattern, it was very difficult for them to unlearn. Paranoia came next. But eventually I became convinced that I could create an actual thought infection.

The patterns I invented became more complex, and more difficult. The whole world because my lab. And at last, I thought I could create one which would make it into the hallowed vaults of the CCN and be registered as a communicable mental disease.”

            Max took a minute to digest this, and then finally he asked, “Why?”

            Daniel turned towards Max and smiled, “Because, you --and those like you-- made certain ways of thinking illegal. And you have to pay for that. This is all really your fault. You servants of tyranny deserve worse.”

            Max shrugged, “You can’t elicit anger from me, Daniel. That doesn’t really work on CCN agents. We specifically train against it, because it would weaken our mental tolerance.”

            “Hmm, it was worth a shot.” Daniel said with a smile. “Very well then, am I under arrest, special agent Rockwell?”

            “Yes –” Max paused. And the profound realization of his position took hold all at once. He drew his pistol.

            “Your first breakthrough?” Max asked.

            “What?” Daniel asked in return.

            “You said that Melancomia was your first break through.” Max said.

            “Did I?”

            “Yes, you’ve…invented another.” Max said

            Daniel couldn’t stifle his smile.

            “You expected me,” Max said. “You wanted to meet me here. To infect a CCN agent with a new mental disease. You want to infect the entire agency through me, don’t you?”

Daniel said nothing.

Max continued, “And without CCN, the world would be defenseless against a new mental pandemic.”

            Daniel’s face was blank.

            “Maybe I’m already infected.” Max said, looking down into the water below.

            “Easy, Max,” Daniel returned, “Remember, I became a master at spreading paranoia.”

            Max lifted the pistol and pointed it at Daniel’s head. “I can’t let you off this dam,” he said. “If you’ve invented a new infectious thought pattern, you’d be able to spread it without me having any way of know?”

            “True, true” Daniel shrugged in agreement.

            “Have you infected anyone else!?” Max demanded.

            “You know I would never tell you that.” Daniel responded with a wink.

            Max shouted in frustration and lowered the pistol. He had to know if Daniel had infected others, and so he couldn’t simply kill the villain. He also knew that attending a violent event could act as a trigger for certain mental infections. Perhaps Daniel wanted Max to kill him.

            “I’ve been preparing for our meeting for a long time, Agent Rockwell,” Daniel said.

            “Gods!” Max shouted again. He didn’t know what to do.

            Daniel turned and put a friendly hand on Max’s shoulder. “I’ve enjoyed talking to you more than I thought I would.”

            Max only locked his jaw in anger and squeezed the handle of his pistol.

            “Hey, watch this,” Daniel said, and in one fluid movement, he flung himself over the side of the dam.

            “Noooo!” Max grasped out madly to stop Daniel. But he only snatched the empty air.

            Daniel fell headfirst, hands still in his pockets and was dashed upon the rocks and water below.

            The broken body sank below the water for a brief moment, but then floated back to the surface, face down.

            Max’s heart raced, and he stood in the sudden stillness, completely disoriented by the mad death he’d just observed.

            He didn’t move for a very long time. He simply starred down at Daniel’s lifeless body floating away down the river, and Max wondered if he should follow.

                 

               

                 

Tuesday, August 4, 2020

A Bird’s Eye View

Much has been written about learning to challenge unconsciously accepted interpretations. And rightfully so. Perhaps unconsciously accepted interpretations make up the lion’s share of our cognitive energy, which is ironic because they exist is to save such energy. But they are so numerous, they inform every moment of our experience.

In psychology, these mental shortcuts are called heuristics, and they’re very valuable. Instead of having to render an interpretation from each individual component of a situation, the mind can draw interpretations from a small amount of present data, relying on previous experience to fill in the gaps. This saves energy, but it also blinds us from virgin encounters.

Yet, all it takes is a simple challenge to shatter illusion of objective perception. Once, a crow (quite accidentally, I would imagine) challenged a heuristic of mine, and the experience was not unpleasant.

That day, the packed asphalt and unbroken trajectory of uniform material told me that I was walking along a street. The raised edges, devoid of vegetation told me that I walked on top of a sidewalk. These same geographical characteristics, however, had no such effect on the crow though. When I first looked at him, I believed that he was crossing the street.

Previously, I had observed the area’s squirrels cross that same street. They interacted with such a particular arrangement of pavement as I did. They saw the street. I know this because they crossed the street perpendicularly, taking the shortest possible path. Such an understanding was necessary to their survival. They understood the concept of a road, and so this concept affected their behavior. Their heuristic regarding this strange scratch upon the terrain was similar to mine.

The crow had no such understanding. He moved over the asphalt terrain in a slanted, untethered trajectory. He didn’t see the road. He had no concept of road. Why should he? His was the domain of the air. And so, the physical elements which affected both me and the squirrels didn’t affect his behavior.

I had been mistaken. He wasn’t crossing a road. Roads weren’t real to him, and he couldn’t cross what didn’t exist.

I tried to put my consciousness into that little feathered body and imagined what it might be like to exist as he. I was found myself upon a barren plain, a black desert with stark boundaries veering off to meet the horizon at an odd angle. The ground was very smooth here, and the sun met the flat black beneath my feet completely uninhibited. I wandered around this strange area for a length, simply experiencing the qualities of this patch of earth as they were.

 For an instant too brief to measure, the concept which bound the squirrel and the man faded away, and I was able to see the landscape unobscured.